So being a mother is not always cakes and parties. I love being a mother but sometime it can be very draining, I remember when I was a new mother I held my little girl in my arms and I was excited but a bit nerves. The first time in the hospital I tried to change her cloths I was afraid I might break her. My mother in law saved the day and taught me how to dress this new little life I was now responsible for.
I remember when we first brought her home she cried a lot. I spent many night up with my new little baby rocking her and cuddling her so she could sleep . At this time in my life I thought If we can just make it through the baby and toddler years. I will get good rest again and, this parenting thing wont be so hard she will be able to do many thing for her self. Well I was wrong being a mother I don't think is ever going to get easy. It is something that the lord has given me a life time to learn. I know I have lots of learning still to do.
Today I had 8 little scouts over all of them Braden age we were doing a mothers day craft. I asked Shaylee if I could use some of her markers and coloring supplies. She said yes at first but then changed her mind. She did not wont the boys using her special scented markers. I told her she was being a brat and need to share. She stormed up to her room . I thought I will talk to her when the boys all leave. But I did not know that she was up stairs packing. She had decided to run away. So the door bell rang and this it what I found, a flower she had made for me and a note saying
"Mom I love you and didn't know you felt that way. By for now
love your only daughter:( "
I hoped she wouldn't go far but I had all these little scouts at my home and didn't have time to go run after her. But as time went by I began feeling very nerves what if she goes far. She took my big mountain bike, she could travel pretty fast. She is all alone someone could take her and we may never find her. I love her so much and could not live with my self if something happened to her. So as I was getting ready to go look for her she pulled her bike in to the garage. I was so glad to see her but also upset at her behavior. I gave her a big hug and told her i love her and to never do that again. Their has been a punishment of no friends for the weekend. I don't know if this will make her realize that running away will not solve any problems.
I know I could have probably handled the situation better but I still have learning to do. I know I am not going to be able to raise my children with out help from heavenly father. I need his guidance every day. And I think the teen years will once again have many restless night worrying about the well being of my kids. I hope and pray that I can raise children that Respect them selves and others. I pray they will always be kind to people around them.
So i wish every day was about cakes and parties, but in reality their will be lots of bumps on this road we call life and some times it rain and we will get muddy. Thank heavens their is always tomorrow. I hope the sun will shine.
